I wish

I guess I gotta say that I didn't mean to offend anyone with the first blog. I wasn't trying to accuse anyone, and I know that this year has not only been hard for me, but many many others. She was the most amazing person, impossible to not love her. I guess that's why it hurts so bad, and why i get so angry. I wish I learned things she wanted to teach me, like cooking and such. I wish I was better at calling her. I wish so bad that i could lay my head on her lap and cry...she'd run her fingers through my hair and tell me it's gonna be alright. I wish she could hold Lor as she grieves for her baby girl. I wish she could see Cohen's gorgeous little smile and hear his laugh. I wish i could go through a drive thru and get embarrassed one more time. I wish i could see her face if i ever walked down the aisle. I wish I could hear her contagious laugh. I wish amara and joey would be able to remember her how we do. I wish i could heal my dad's broken heart. I wish My husband had a chance to fight dusty and mike for her favor. I wish Netters still had her best friend. Most of all, I wish that I didn't have to spend the rest of my life without her. I'm tired of crying. I'm tired of hiding my feelings. I miss my mom. Please comment if you want. I know you miss her too.