One Amazing Day

I've been thinking a lot about one of the few good days this year, it was a hard day, but a miraculous day in a way. June 11th changed my life. In my sister's giant belly was the most precious miracle, i'll never forget her gorgeous little face. It's scary finding out that someone you love so deeply is gonna hurt so bad. So, as we sit there waiting for this baby, knowing that she will not live very long, i was just filled with so much peace, and clearly so was my sister. She's the most brave woman i ever met. I remember crying to my mom, because i was so worried about her after we found out the diagnosis. My mom said, "she's gonna be ok, i know she is" I wish mom could tell us now, that everything is going to be ok. But back to Nevaeh... she was more beautiful then i ever could've imagined. tiny little hands and feet, big gorgeous eyes, perfect little double chin. How does a preemie have a double chin? I'll never know but i think about that little girl everyday. When she was still in the womb Lor would let me feel her moving and i was so blessed to be able to talk to her and feel her through the skin on her belly. Hard to believe what was moving so much wouldn't live more then a couple hours after birth. She changed more lives in an hour then many do in a lifetime. Now she gets to spend her days with the one we loved the most, her nana. I'm quite jealous to be honest, but a girl that precious deserves it. She would be 6 months in a few days..hard to believe it was that long ago, yet at the same time feels so far away. Even though i miss her like crazy, and my heart aches so bad for my sister and bro in law, i'd rather have had that day with her then never have got to meet her at all.