He changed my Life

I've been thinking about Cheech a lot lately. Missing him daily. Wondering what will happen in his life and where he'll end up. Thought I'd just write down some thoughts, maybe one day He'll read them, who knows. I spend so much time trying not to think about him but the kid has had such an impact on my life I can't help it. Would I change things if I could go back in time? In a heartbeat. Do I think I did the right thing by letting him go? i sure hope so. All I can do is hope and pray that God watches over him and goes through life with him and that Cheech chooses the right paths. Maybe someday the social worker will call me again, hopefully not for his sake. For mine yes, cuz I miss the kid so freakin bad, but really I just want him to be happy. What a guy. He really helped me cope when I was going through the hardest moments in life. Gave me reason to get out of bed when mom died. The most perfect shopping companion, even chose starbucks over mcdonalds. I miss his hugs, his laugh, his non-stop talking that drove me crazy at times... I just hope that one day, when he wonders why I let him go, he knows that i did because I love him, not because I don't. Cuz I love that kid more then I could ever express in words. I wish I could see him. Don't get me started on Social Workers, that's a whole different blog right there...UGH
Anyways. Cheech, if you ever read this, If blogging isn't obsolete by the time you get old enough to understand a computer. I love you so much, and letting you go was the hardest thing i ever did.
As for everyone else, fostering is amazing. The kids are awesome and have changed my life for the past 10 years more then any other kids in the world. The love they give you back is more rewarding then anything, so if you've ever considered it, do it. Sometimes it hurts to love someone so much and have to say goodbye, but it's a good thing. Look into it, I guarantee you wont be sorry...just sorry you've waited so long when there are so many kids that you are missing out on sharing your lives with.